I cannot believe this day is here. We're finally done with almost everything. We still have a few i's to dot and a few t's to cross but we're coming around the home stretch! Today we discussed punishment, and why or why things are or aren't okay and we talked about the kids specific situations, they gave examples of rewards and punishments. We talked about the privacy issue- which I have to ask if I can even blog about the foster experience or not. I know that I couldn't use ANY pictures OR any names. OR I cannot say anything about this child's history or what happened to him/her or mention their parents. I did want to ask if I could blog about milestones, make up a fake name, etc. I will mind the rules whatever they may be. I am just hoping that I can very vaguely talk about them here.
Wednesday we have one more class where we get the 24 hours in, but we're having a get together with a pot luck style dinner and we're having a panel of experts come in and answer questions, share experiences, and show us stories/photos of their kids. I am ready for the relaxed style class. We're done with all of our modules.
This week on my to-do list, I forgot a few things. I have to go get a copy of Payton and Quinn's birth certificate, go to the health dept for my TB test, make a few copies and get a few things notarized. The week after next is my kiddos health screen, and after that is complete *knock on wood* we'll be done and ready for our final home evaluation. I hope we can get our foster child by the middle of September.
So far the process has been at light-speed for us, and only roadblocks we've had were very minor. I know that you might read my story and think it's always like this but after sitting through this class, I am seeing that we got lucky and it isn't usually this fast track from no interest to having a child in your home. God knows I am not a patient person and most of the time He makes me wait (and wait and wait and wait as it feels) and even this fast experience for us has kept me waiting and so eager along the way (although read my contentment post- I am feeling 10000% content now and so enjoying my family of 6 before it grows). I don't know if He has a child in mind for us already because of my prayers for the past 2 1/2 years or if He is preparing us to help many many children before He blesses us with another. I don't usually "get my way" the way I have it all planned out. I can say without a shadow of a doubt that His way is always better than "my way" looking back and I have the ability to see why He chooses the way He does. The last time He gave me my way- better than "my way" was with the birth of Quinn. Her entire birth was this roller coaster of emotions, facing my possible death, God sending me a peace and reassurance I'd never had before but I didn't know the outcome. I was all prepared to have placenta accreta, to hemorrhage and get horribly ill during her birth, and here God granted what I asked all along and it was even better than I'd hope or prayed for the outcome. The roller coaster was just over. It was a fairy tale, perfect ending. I have never felt so loved by God and humble and thankful and undeserving of anything in my entire life. I felt guilty for underestimating his audacious grace, mercy and power.
This time I still have that in the back of my mind. My prayer is that we hit the foster parent jack pot, I get a newborn (from the hospital of course), and the first one I get, I get to keep forever. I feel selfish and guilty saying that but it could spare me time, patience and heart ache. It could help my entire family not to feel that. I am a tool in God's hands though and if He wants to use me, I am begging for His will to override my prayers. I have wondered if He'd honor our request and do something that was "too good to be true" or something that "never happens" so that He can receive all the praise, honor and glory. Something only He can do. A miracle.